Soul Searching in the South for a spell

I know you’re here today looking for answers. Mainly… why did I leave Hampshire so abruptly after 15 months of sharing a countryside I had truly fallen head over heels in love with. Well, I’ll start by saying you probably aren’t going to get the juicy gossip you’re hoping for here. So, don’t cancel your nightly watching of Real Housewives thinking your entertainment quota will be satisfied by what you’re about to digest. It won’t be.

Here’s the long and short of it. I’ve come home, to South Carolina, for a few months to press restart. This isn’t a vacation. It’s not a jolly. It’s a choice I had to make because of a personal situation that I’m not going to share, out of respect for the other parties involved. I’ve said goodbye to a life I was living, I’ve officially pressed a button that’s labelled “restart” and I’m putting myself back together in the safest place I know on this earth  – home.

I didn’t make the decision to come home lightly. I was planning to return when the world was a little more back to normal and good ole Boris was telling us it was ok to go on vacation. I wanted to visit my family, like everyone else, but I wanted to do it and then return to life and work as normal. Well, whatever “normal” is these days. But, hey, not everything works out in life as planned. If we’ve learned nothing else in this past year, there is that.

Now, my original plan was to wait until I was out of quarantine to tell you I was home (yes, I quarantined, and I’m vaccinated, and I have taken more Covid tests than any individual probably should in a two week period). I wanted time to heal, time to be with my family and time to create in a way that would be, hopefully, beautiful and therapeutic. Things haven’t gone exactly to plan. I think this past year has thrown me for an emotional loop, as it has done for 99.9% of the world. So emotions are running high. I cry at the drop of a hat and am finding it particularly tough to pull out my camera as creativity is nonexistent for me at the moment. That has been the scariest thing of all this past week. For the first time in 11 years, my camera sat on a shelf and collected dust. No joke. I had to wipe the viewfinder clean this afternoon to get the shot you see above. I just haven’t wanted to do anything.

And for that, I owe you an apology, again, one of the dozen or so I’ve issued this year. I’ve let everything fall by the wayside. Honestly, everything. I’ve given no love to this site for months. I’ve tried to channel all the positivity I could and share as much as possible on Instagram, with daily shots and stories to give the illusion that “everything was fine.” But like so many of you know yourselves, everything wasn’t fine. And hey, that’s where I have to throw my hands up and say, “I wasn’t honest. I was selling a lie.” Don’t get me wrong. The images themselves, of the magnificent countryside, are as honest as they come. But, the struggle I was experiencing on a personal level behind the scenes was not honest and for that I feel guilty.

So what now?

Well, it’s time for a bounce back, people. It’s time for me to do the healing I’ve been talking about. It’s time for me to throw myself back into what I love… writing, storytelling, shopping and sharing! I lost a bit of who I was and I feel like I’ve got the wheels headed in the right direction to be carefully placed again on the correct track. I’ve got a few months here to put my head down and get on with it all, so I hope you’re ready to be thrown into the deep end of what is sure to be a resurgence of next level epic proportion. Well, that’s what I’m planning anyway.

I’ve never been one to simply be down and stay down. And I guess that’s the bigger message I wanted to send out into the world today. First, that you never know what’s happening behind the scenes and second, that I’m sorry I wasn’t honest about it from the start. But third, and the most important, is that I’m home now in a place where I feel like I’ve been given rocket fuel for the future. For that, I’m humbled, blessed and excited!

So, people of the UK, don’t give up on me. I’m coming back. But, my fellow Americans, I hope you’ll be happy to welcome me home for a few months of enjoying this lovely landscape!

And with that, I’ll just say now… and forever… THANK YOU!

Thank you for always being supportive, for sending endless messages as I hinted at a change and checking in to make sure I was ok. I’ve met so few of you in person, but the conversations we have had on a daily basis truly have made me feel as if I have friends all over the world. That is an honour I never thought I would have in my lifetime and one I am forever thankful for.

Now, time for a therapist to move into my weekly schedule, some sun to touch this ghost white skin (don’t worry, I’m wearing my SPF) and for my keyboard to feel the ache of my tireless fingers bringing new content your way daily!

BRING IT ON!

So, if you have any questions, please feel free to ask below in comments. I’m all too happy to answer anything I can.

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  1. Leslie
    24th May / 5:30 am

    I wish you all the best and you do not need to apologize.

    • Emily
      Author
      24th May / 5:55 am

      Thank you, Leslie!x

      • Abby
        25th May / 2:46 am

        Emily, life knocks us down some expected & some not at all so please do not apologize for being human, please don’t apologize for not wanting to share, talk fashion… apologize to Emily someone who I followed for at least 2 years. Since then I get the impression that you have a beautiful soul. Look in your mirror and apologize to yourself and say it’s ok shit happens and I will do what I need to do to get it together. You got this ❤️😎 you are in a safe place to give you love & support !

  2. Claire
    24th May / 5:37 am

    Sending lots of love. Think the last year has shown us sometimes we need to reset and recover. No better place to do that than somewhere that touches your soul, home.
    Xx

    • Emily
      Author
      24th May / 5:56 am

      It’s so so true! And also the importance of family above all else! x

  3. Sandra
    24th May / 5:41 am

    While we don’t know the specifics, I’m glad you are home. This year has been hard for everyone. I’ve watched my own children suffer and become different people than they were a year ago. There is a lot of healing to do and at every age, we all need our moms. Soak in the parental love and the comforts of home so that you re-emerge whole again. Welcome back to the US. I look forward to hearing your progress and to seeing your gorgeous pics on the grid. Much love, X

    • Emily
      Author
      24th May / 5:58 am

      Thank you so much, Sandra! It is so true that so many have been changed by what has happened, some in ways I can only imagine makes all of this seem so trivial. But I do recognise that people need to be more open about it. For a while I thought people might think it’s ridiculous a 41 year old woman rushing home to her mom and dad. But heck, if it works, why not? Sending lots of love and thank you again! x

      • Kat
        24th May / 6:15 am

        A massive virtual hug to you. Absolutely no questions just a hope that you are ok. Whenever you’ve been home previously it’s completed a piece of your heart – having the dogs and your family around you has always brought that to your posts so I have no doubt that going home was the right thing to do. Plus as a mother myself albeit to small children I’d want them to come home at 8 and at 80 if they ever needed me. That’s what home is. So you soak it in and update us as and when you’re ready – we will be here.

        • Sam
          24th May / 1:31 pm

          Your posts really brighten my day and I’m sorry your days have not been so bright recently. No explanation necessary, take all the time you need. We’ll be here, excited to see your fabulous content whenever you are ready. Take care of yourself!

      • Lauren
        24th May / 12:09 pm

        Sending love and support from NY. Family is the best for healing. ♥ Your followers are here for you.

    • Kirsty
      24th May / 2:43 pm

      I hope you find space, solace and happiness with your lovely family and beautiful dogs.
      Wishing you love and strength in your journey

  4. Kim
    24th May / 5:51 am

    Hi Emily
    I’m glad you’re home in your safe, happy place to reset your life. You talk about getting back to daily posts, don’t put that pressure on yourself. Your loyal followers will still be sat ready for you when you re-emerge. Yes Instagram and social media can be fickle but like real life friends, your virtual friends/community will wait for you. In our homes we are sending strength, love and best wishes to you. Don’t forget your big almost invisible group sending you a great big hug to get through this phase.
    All the very best and see you on the other side.
    Kim xxx

    • Emily
      Author
      24th May / 6:00 am

      You are so so kind, Kim! Thank you! In all honesty, I believe making myself show up daily is probably the best thing to do! I have missed writing and sharing and everything else that comes with it. But you are so so kind to say what you have. I couldn’t ask for a better community here! xoxo

  5. Meghan
    24th May / 5:57 am

    No questions, just love. ❤️

    • Emily
      Author
      24th May / 6:00 am

      Thank you so much, Meghan! x

      • Angela
        24th May / 7:53 am

        Hello Emily
        Sending you so much love and hope. You are without doubt my favourite account on the gram. I think it’s a wonderful thing that you have found the strength to go and do this. It’s a very brave thing to do to go and restart. We will still all be here watching and cheering for you.

  6. Katie
    24th May / 6:09 am

    No need to apologize! Glad you are able to get back home to re-group!

    Take your time and looking forward to what you have in store when you’re ready!

  7. RosaFabulosa
    24th May / 6:12 am

    As others say, don’t apologise! I think the majority of us know and understand that you are keeping something to yourself and that life as seen on instagram is just a part, and normally the more upbeat one. I wish you healing and as slow a recovery as you need. We’ll keep popping in to see what’s new but without expectations! Take care Emily!

    • Tara
      24th May / 6:21 am

      Welcome back! I hope you enjoy your time in the US with Boomer, Brody & your human family!

      • Kassie
        24th May / 12:29 pm

        Sending you love and a big hug! Sometimes we have done all we can to survive. I know that’s how I feel about the last 16 months. You have been one of the small days of sunshine to come through during the pandemic so while you apologize, I thank you Emily. You have shown us your inner soul during this time. You made me feel it was okay for me to cry over nothing but everything. I think I speak for many that while we missed you here, your Instagram page was one that helped the last 16 months a little bit easier, and for that I thank you. Welcome back to America and I am sooo excited for your fashion finds!

  8. Dawn
    24th May / 6:25 am

    Everyone needs a restart in their lives at one point or another. Being back home may not have been in your plans but what an incredible gift you’ve been given; time with your parents. I’d give anything to have that again. To experience the unbreakable force field of love and security only home/parents can provide. Plus the unconditional love of two dogs!❤️ Lots of love

  9. TanjaK
    24th May / 6:31 am

    I am glad that you are home and safe. Heck, I am 52 and have spent the year with my parents. Granted, they need help, but they are also a safe haven for me. So, you absolutely do what you need to do. No need to apologise, you owe us nothing. Hope you get plenty of wet doggy kisses and furry snuggles. They are the best. Sending you love.

  10. Emma
    24th May / 6:33 am

    So sorry to hear this – both for you, having to hide something so difficult and having to go through it, and for those of us who will miss your work ( hopefully temporarily). It’s been a very tough year for everyone, but your Instagram has always been very positive in inspiring me- you have the mix of aspirational and achievable which so many don’t. I hope things get better and really look forward to seeing you back

  11. Alex
    24th May / 6:53 am

    Dear Emily, sending so much love to you and I hope you start to feel like you again. I feel the exact same way at the moment and have been for a few months. And it’s a horrible feeling…so I am really glad you are taking a break and giving yourself some time. And seeing a therapist (which I am in the middle of finding too!).
    Lots of love xxx

  12. Elizabeth
    24th May / 7:10 am

    Lots of love. 2020 took a huge emotional toll on so many that I don’t think we can begin to understand how it’s affected us. I’m glad your home with your family, I love seeing you in South Carolina. You bring so much joy to so many, give yourself a break and take some time to find some joy with your family. xx

  13. 24th May / 7:10 am

    Emily, I love what you do, but life is short, you have to do what makes you happy. Enjoy the time at home. Come back when you are ready. We miss you already x

  14. Sandia
    24th May / 7:11 am

    ❤️❤️

  15. Emilie
    24th May / 7:12 am

    Emily
    I love your honesty and the fact that you struggle, just like everyone else could, is so ok.
    I started seeing a therapist a few weeks back and it is doing so much for my soul and my mind
    Thank you for what you shared over the last year and take a really good care of yourself
    Émilie

  16. 24th May / 7:15 am

    Please don’t apologize for anything. I had the realization this weekend that one good thing about the lockdown was that for the most part people had lowered expectations of one another. And I’m not quite ready to meet new, higher expectations (which are probably mostly imagined on my part). I went to a large outdoor mall today in Los Angeles, where I live, and had an anxiety attack over the crowds. We’re all changing and our priorities are shifting. I think for many of us, that will be for the better. While I can’t wait to follow your journey, you let us in (if you want to) at your own pace. And if you feel like visiting LA, give me a holler! xo

  17. Sarah Jane
    24th May / 7:26 am

    No judgment at all, Emily. You are where you need to be and that is all that is important. Give yourself time to heal, time to be, time to gather strength. Know that you, through your little squares, have given so much joy and support for people and never more so than in the last 15 months. In return we send our love and support to you. C

  18. 24th May / 7:27 am

    Being so far from your family for so long during this most difficult of years must have been so incredibly hard. I bet they are so happy to have you back and be able to support you at a time when you need it. Relax and embrace this time and everything else will wait. Much love from England x x

  19. Lexi
    24th May / 7:29 am

    I am so pleased you are where you feel you need to be to restored and be pieced back together. Lockdown has definitely taught many of us what is important in life and we now have the opportunity to reboot. Brave you is doing just that ! I hope you feel back to the old you very soon & raring to go. Good Luck x

  20. Georgie
    24th May / 7:37 am

    There’s no need for you to be sorry at all. I read this just now & tears filled my eyes. You’re home & for now that’s where you need to be, surrounded with all the people & things that’ll comfort you & of course your four legged family.
    I love the restart button, we can all learn from this & take the notion that we all sometimes could do this too.
    Take care & soak up all that surrounds you. Xx

  21. Kerry
    24th May / 7:48 am

    Absolutely no need to apologise, we’ve all put on our ‘game face’ at times, and sometimes that’s ok, but sometimes you need to take a deep breath and rest for a minute. Sending you love from the UK, without any expectations…do what you need to do and know we only want the best for you ❤️ Be well xxxxx

  22. Hilary
    24th May / 7:52 am

    I get it. Pandemic, health problems and just exhaustion has made me reevaluate my life as well. I wish you all the happiness and hope your recharge gives you the super powers that we all need in this world. Your home in the south looks like heaven – I be put this on my bucket list!

  23. 24th May / 8:10 am

    I have thoroughly enjoyed your ‘company’ via your daily posts on Instagram. You are beautiful inside and out, bright, articulate, funny and a very talented human being. As I always say, we don’t know one another but I feel like we are friends. You talk about your family, two and four legged, with such love and I know they will be some of the best therapy you can ask for. I send love and blessings to you, from a very strange lady/ a stranger who feels she knows you xx

  24. Robin
    24th May / 8:11 am

    You are so lucky to have a wonderful safe haven to go to while you press reset! Enjoy your family and doggies, let them comfort you. Being home will give you the boost that you need! Xx

  25. Deb
    24th May / 8:11 am

    Hi Emily,
    Just take your time you don’t need to explain or apologise, just get on with what you need to do sweetie feel safe back in mum and dad’s embrace x

  26. Kristina
    24th May / 8:13 am

    Sending you love, a beautifully written heartfelt post.
    You are were you need to be. xxxxx

  27. Julie
    24th May / 8:15 am

    ‘In the rush to return to normal, use this time to consider which parts of normal are worth rushing back to’ …the quote I have returned to so many times this year. We all need our own version of Reset and I think yours is perfect.
    Huge love Emily, I love reading your posts but for now feel the love of home and those gorgeous doggies xxxxxx

  28. Fee T
    24th May / 8:16 am

    Hi Emily, I hope you’re okay. I cannot wait to see photos of home cooked food and for me ‘exotic’ landscapes as well as fashion. Its been a tough old 18mths and I can only imagine what it’s like to be so far from your family. Nice to have more variety of company too. Take care 🙂

  29. Aoife
    24th May / 8:18 am

    Look after yourself Emily ❤ No better place to be right now than with family.

  30. Helen
    24th May / 8:18 am

    So sorry to hear about your upheaval but hope you find your new happy place and direction soon. You are such a talented person in many ways but I am particularly in awe of your writing skills, so as long as you are writing, I am following!! Good luck and much happiness, gorgeous girl!!

  31. Jo Simmons
    24th May / 8:21 am

    In a way quarantine may be a blessing for you, time to reflect and relax in the comfort, safety and beauty of your family home. I hope it’s as restorative for you as it looks to be and look forward to following your journey in the future. No need to apologise, you don’t owe the public anything!

  32. Jo
    24th May / 8:21 am

    Dear Emily, I’m so glad you’re home safe and surrounded by your family and loved ones. Take time for you, sending you love, positivity and strength xx

  33. Komal
    24th May / 8:26 am

    Sending you love and hugs from the uk… take your time and reset and we will be here to welcome you back with open arms whenever you return…. there’s no better place than home to refill your soul and spirit ❤️

  34. Jeanette
    24th May / 8:27 am

    Wishing you only best wishes the last year has been challenging for lots of people.
    I hope you find yourself again find love and happiness in the new chapter of life
    You are an inspiration and will come back bigger snd better
    Keep being you snd we look forward having you back in the UK, you fitted in here do well.
    Good luck and lots of love for the future

  35. Sonja
    24th May / 8:28 am

    No wise words, just a simple virtual hug because nothing more is needed when you’re Home and Safe with your loved ones. Much love and prayers to you on this journey of Strength. Be Blessed, always x

  36. Kathy
    24th May / 8:30 am

    After the past year, no one needs to apologise for rethinking life. To have the ability to do it in a place where you are fully loved? Even better. You owe only yourself. Hope this time is healing and you can rejigger a new direcyion.

  37. Gabrielle
    24th May / 8:51 am

    This past year struck most of us down, men or women, old or young, even those who felt the strongest, don’t mind! We need a safe place to heal and the biggest courage is to just go the way for it. I’m following you from France just for a few month now and I like your writing. Looking foreward to your publication or novel! You are such a charmant person!

  38. Pauline
    24th May / 9:18 am

    Dear Emily,
    I’m sorry you feel the need, among everything happening in your life, to apologize.
    We should cope with our feelings, life-changing situations and everything else in our own ways. No matter social media exposure and pseudo rules. Not all has to be public all the time. Some things need time before going public. And you’re the only one responsible to post about it.
    We cannot be disappointed or mad because of that.
    If something, you bring to us not only great outfits and countryside pics but pure honesty. We cannot respect you more in doing so at your own pace. And for that, we can only send you lots of support, hugs and love 🧡
    Enjoy your time home to refuel and restart. Future is as bright as sunsets in your photos from South Carolina.

  39. Maria Luisa
    24th May / 9:32 am

    My dear Emily… I’m a little bit of a psychic and felt you weren’t ok. I even thought for a hot minute you went back home or moved to another country. You know I’m always here supporting you 100% even though we have never met each other in person, but you definitely inspire me everyday to become better! All the best, relax, take time for you, enjoy your family… and please never lose that beautiful spirit you have that make all of us care for you so much. Your instafriend @marialuisahr

  40. Melinda
    24th May / 9:34 am

    No need to apologize! We are here for you and are so grateful for how much of your life you share with us. I’m so glad you’re safe and home with your family. This last year has been so incredibly difficult for all of us and has revealed what’s truly important. You deserve a ton of credit for recognizing what you need…and acting on it! Take all the time you need to heal and reset with all the puppy snuggles. The camera, your blog, and followers/friends will all be here when you’re ready. Sending so many hugs!

  41. Daniela
    24th May / 9:37 am

    You were not selling a lie, you were just not oversharing to the world. I understand and I would never judge you for that. Isn’t it the same when you meet up in a restaurant with your closest friends with a big “I’m totally fine” smile plastered all over your face? Sometimes it’s just something that cannot be shared. I truly hope you feel better and like yourself again soon.

  42. Maria
    24th May / 9:47 am

    Take care, you’re home and that means everything.x

  43. Sarah
    24th May / 9:52 am

    Sending you much love, Emily. Home is exactly where you need to be for now. Know that your friends are here still, whenever you feel called to express yourself. Sending you a big bear hug. Sarahx

  44. Nikki
    24th May / 9:53 am

    You should never apologise for having to do what’s right for you! I have had to learn this over the last year too and therapy has done wonders!
    Sending you all the love in the world <3

  45. Lorellalondon
    24th May / 9:58 am

    Whatever is good for you girl, we understand ! Recharge and reset, we love you anyway!

  46. Jacquie
    24th May / 10:07 am

    Dear Emily

    You’re home with your family and 4 legged friends for some time to reset. Your mental health and feelings are far more important than you having to explain your wider family about what’s going on. You may have chosen to share so much of your life in the public eye but sometimes enough is enough especially after the last year we’ve all had. Enjoy the time at home, some time out. I will enjoy seeing your pics when you feel the time is right to share. Sending hugs Jacquie

  47. 24th May / 10:40 am

    Emily, Palm Springs and muffin induced hysteria with Tabitha seem a long, long time ago now. But I wanted to drop you a line and say hello and what a fan I am of your writing. I’m sure you have this covered already, but I’m here if you ever wanted to work on a book project. Otherwise this is just to say thank you for the words, and sharing your stories.
    Ax

  48. Connie
    24th May / 10:58 am

    No need to apologize. The last year has done a number on all of us! I think most of us are going through some changes and relearning and starting again.

  49. 24th May / 11:01 am

    I’m sorry you are struggling and I’m glad you are hitting the reset button at home with family. We’ll be right here cheering you on. x

  50. Shelli
    24th May / 11:02 am

    Dogs make everything better! I look forward to your posts….they are authentic. Hugs to you, girl. I’m sure your family is super grateful to have you home for a while and happy to play a part in your reset. And the southern summers just have a way about them…iykyk. ♥️

  51. Cheryl
    24th May / 11:14 am

    Emily,
    You know how I feel. I’m sending you such love from Rhode Island. I know you’re where you need to be right now. Take care of yourself, my dear. Put yourself first. Just this once. It will be worth it. 😘
    Cheryl
    xoxo

  52. Sarah Morris
    24th May / 11:17 am

    Theres no place like home, with your family.
    I hope that my daughter always returns when she needs to, be safe, take your time and walk with your gorgeous golden boys. You never need to apologize or explain, but a hello occasionally would be good to know you are doing ok, as we shall miss your posts, but you are so entitled to a private life. x x x

  53. Linda
    24th May / 11:34 am

    Welcome Home! I know your family is happy to have you back for a bit. Take the pressure of of yourself, if you don’t feel like posting don’t! Your loyal followers understand everyone needs a break. Give yourself time to recharge at you’re own pace, not the pace of a perception for acceptance. It’s a lot to keep up and maintain. Enjoy the low country for the simmer, there isn’t anywhere like it! Please give my love to Mom and Dad. Relax, enjoy and heal yourself. ❤️

  54. Ines
    24th May / 12:04 pm

    All the best to you in this stage of your life. I hope you can find comfort and peace and am looking forward to your photos of beautiful South Carolina!
    Hugs from Portugal 🇵🇹

  55. Sunay
    24th May / 12:10 pm

    1. You don’t have to feel guilty for trying to cheer yourself and the rest of us up on instagram with happy pictures.
    2. It sounds like you may be having some symptoms of depression. Pandemic and life transitions are hard, you don’t have to wait for total chaos to hit to get a bit of therapy to help you through tough times. You can use it as a preventative measure.
    3. Rest, self-care, rinse and repeat.

  56. Alexis
    24th May / 12:13 pm

    Emily. You do not need to apologise to us. This last year has been hard for many of us. I’m a therapist… I see this on a weekly basis, but I’m also feeling it too. I’m longing for the summer break and although I have no low land heaven to retreat to, you’ve inspired me to book a retreat just for me, just for a week, away from my family (lovely as they are) and daily life. All the very best in your next season xx

  57. Luci
    24th May / 12:24 pm

    No apologies needed ❤️. Just sending you a lot of love. I think water AND family helps heal the soul so I think you’re in the best place for that.

  58. Ide
    24th May / 12:34 pm

    Lots of hugs to you

  59. Jenny B
    24th May / 12:43 pm

    You can take the girl out of the Carolinas but you can’t take the Carolinas out of the girl. Thank you for being honest and for your southern hospitality. You are the host, we are your guests. While some may have higher expectations, the majority are here for goodwill, fellowship and therapuetics (food, fashion and fun.. lol) .
    You sound like a girl who needs her mom, lean on her and soak in all her goodness now (while soaking in some Carolina sun too ) . XX

  60. Nicola
    24th May / 12:48 pm

    No apology needed. I’ve appreciated your words and pictures over the past year both as a source of encouragement and strength, and also simple pleasure, so thank you for that. Wishing you peace and love as you take time for yourself back with your family.

  61. Heather Wright-Finn
    24th May / 1:05 pm

    Hi Ms. Emily,

    Sending you love, strength and grace!!! It’s been a rough year and I’m so glad you found your safe haven. Therapy, sweet tea, your pups and the sea will heal your soul and inspire your creativity. All in good time. Welcome home to the land of Ralph, baseball and BBQ!!! ✨🇺🇸✌🏻🌎✨
    Best Regards,
    Heather Wright-Finn
    Native Bostonian
    Avid follower of EJJ and Fashion Frois Grois.

  62. Kate
    24th May / 1:05 pm

    Welcome home, right in time for the SC heat! Sending you positive vibes from Charleston. You’re exactly where you should be to recharge and reassess.

  63. Neena Sharma
    24th May / 1:05 pm

    Best of luck Emily. We look forward to welcoming you back to dear old Blighty. Lots of love xx

  64. Jo
    24th May / 1:07 pm

    Lots of love to you❤️ As you know golden retrievers fix everything ❤️

  65. 24th May / 1:12 pm

    Girl, no better place to hit reset. I did a reset at 40, had moved to London to be with someone, that imploded and i basically was back in Boston within 10 days, with two dogs. Resets are good. Take care of yourself and find those parts again you lost along the way.:) They will come back roaring!

    • Caroline
      24th May / 4:16 pm

      Do what you need to do and I hope you feel rejuvenated very soon. I hope Hampshire (or even UK) hasn’t lost you forever . Much love from a fellow Hampshire villager x

    • Roo
      24th May / 8:16 pm

      Sending you love and the hope of magical things to come. ❤️

  66. Trish
    24th May / 1:14 pm

    There’s no place like home!! Relax, enjoy your time with the people who love you the most!!! ❤️❤️

  67. Nicky Corbett
    24th May / 1:14 pm

    You don’t owe us anything, least of all an explanation about some tough times you’ve been going through. Just relax, enjoy the restorative of being home and your furry friends. Whatever your future holds will still be here waiting for you. Take care Xx

  68. Diana
    24th May / 1:22 pm

    Have a wonderful time back home, and can’t wait to see you back in London

  69. Jennifer
    24th May / 1:23 pm

    So glad you have a place to rejuvenate and recharge…take your time…we’ll be here when you’re ready! Take care and welcome back! 😘

  70. Megan
    24th May / 1:24 pm

    Girl, who HASN’T dealt with all this at some point in the last year +??? I’ll tell you who… nobody! Your IG account is the one I was excited to see every time I opened the app; for sharing so much of yourself there, thank you. You don’t owe your personal experiences to anyone. Recharge and let your mama take care of your heart and if you pop over to Nashville know you have a girlfriend who’ll take you to lunch and show you all the good vintage shops.

  71. Lori
    24th May / 1:27 pm

    Welcome back! The best place to heal is with your family and your beautiful pups. Please give yourself time and grace💛

  72. 24th May / 1:30 pm

    No apologies ever needed to your readers Em – instead I’m thinking how brave you were to carry on as things in life were changing. I’m so glad to see you’re back home with your family and those two beautiful pooches – I hope they bring all the healing you need into your life. Take time, rest and prepare for the eventual joy of re-emerging again – us women are very good at this. Sending a big hug and Biscuit says Hi to Boomer and Brody xxx

  73. Lisa S
    24th May / 1:30 pm

    There really is no place like home ❤ hope you are taking good care of yourself and have some time to reset xx

  74. Katia
    24th May / 1:33 pm

    The best decision for YOU is to be home with you support system and, like you said, restart. Sending you lots of peace, good vibes, and positivity. Welcome home! Now go hug the goldens on the dock!

  75. Catherine H
    24th May / 1:35 pm

    I just hope you find your happiness.
    You’ve really helped me over lockdowns sharing the most precious pictures and videos of the country and when I was in a right ‘funk’ is the only way to describe it you brought me much joy.
    So there’s no need to apologise. You do you. You do what you need to do!
    Ps I’m actually really looking forward to your US pics and videos as I’ve only seen past ones and living in the UK I’m excited to follow your adventure in the US.
    Hopefully you’ll be back in the UK when the time is right with your compass restored ready to take you In whichever direction you choose.
    Be happy, and live in the moment with your family! Xxx

  76. 24th May / 1:40 pm

    Emily I’m so glad you’re safe at home, one thing I’ve learnt from social media particularly over this past year is that although you may think you know someone from their profile & happy go lucky images, you really don’t. Thanks for being brave enough to put into words how so many are feeling. Warm your bones, hug, talk, laugh. It will get better 🌿💚

  77. Sandy
    24th May / 1:41 pm

    It is always good to come home to just be..be loved, be calm, be well, be yourself, be patient. South Carolina is a beautiful place to reset. Blessings. 🧡

  78. Sarah
    24th May / 1:49 pm

    No explanations needed Emily – just take whatever time you need and look after you – sending a big virtual hug. Looking forward to your posts when you are ready – but in the meantime, please do take care. ❤️

  79. Sharon
    24th May / 1:54 pm

    The “boys” I am sure are just over the moon that you are home -and certainly your parents as well! I’ve enjoyed your posts – no matter the content. You are brave, you are strong, you are loved. You do you.

  80. Kerrie
    24th May / 1:59 pm

    Uhhhg…and to think you had to give up the flat in London as well…your little slice of Heaven…for something that made you give up even more in the end. Makes me feel so sad/mad for you – BUT! I know you’ll find something even more fabulous in your next chapter that brings you tranquility and peace! An American over here rooting for your UK return. 🙂

  81. Suzanne
    24th May / 2:02 pm

    I can’t imagine a better place to be right now….home. And in the low country. You handle your business with grace and grit, my dear. No explanation needed. I envy you a tiny bit as our son is in Charleston and we miss him so. I’d like to eventually land in that area. I’m quite confident it will help to soothe your soul. My heartfelt best for you, Emily❤️

  82. Sharon
    24th May / 2:06 pm

    WELCOME HOME!!!! I have also felt the lack of creativity in the last few months. As a creative in my soul, this last year has been really hard. Be kind to yourself as you move forward.

  83. 24th May / 2:09 pm

    Oh my darling girl!
    Sending much love, because you are loved.
    Hoping to see you happy and back to your vibrant self very soon.
    You are in the best place for healing.
    Remember the best is yet to come .
    Love and peace
    Ashley

  84. Maria
    24th May / 2:09 pm

    Enjoy time healing in the South, what a great place to regroup. The Carolinas are filled with so many gorgeous spots.

  85. Donna Norton
    24th May / 2:31 pm

    Welcome home, darling Emily!!! Time for you to soar!❤️

  86. K. Martin
    24th May / 2:33 pm

    I wish you the very best Emily. From one southern girl to another, the place that built you will be the place that heals you. Please no apologies! Enjoy your time at home with family.

  87. Kelly
    24th May / 2:46 pm

    Best wishes to you for you for your time in the South. I look forward to hearing from you and seeing what you do next when the time is right for you.

  88. Theresa Gartner
    24th May / 2:48 pm

    Apology not necessary. Home with family and the boys is the best place for you now. Always love and am appreciative of all your posts whether one a week or fifty a day. Not going anywhere. So take the time you need to get yourself to a better place. Sending you a hug and wishing you well. Now go give the boys a big hug. ❤️❤️Love from your neighbour to the North 🇨🇦

  89. Paula Hall
    24th May / 2:51 pm

    Nothing to ask, just wishing you well and looking forward to seeing pictures of your beautiful home and of course lots of shopping xx

  90. Genevieve
    24th May / 2:55 pm

    I’m so sorry that you’re going through a rough time, and am sending healing thoughts your way. Please don’t feel that you have to apologize for anything. I hope the dogs, the water, and the south work their magic for you!

  91. Tanya
    24th May / 3:09 pm

    No explanation is needed. My thoughts are with you.
    Sending lots of love from Ireland 🍀❤️🍀❤️

  92. 24th May / 3:09 pm

    Home is just what you need. You do not need to apologize to ANYONE for what you have been going through, whatever that is. The people who know how wonderful you are will be here for you no matter how much time you need to take. Don’t feel obligated to push yourself. We love you. Therapy and animals help tremendously. And I am a teeny bit happy that you are stateside because I have a better shot at seeing you!💙💙

  93. Mary Moffat Johansson
    24th May / 3:20 pm

    Emily ! I don’t know you but I have followed your beaucolic life in England throughout the entire pandemic and as many have mentioned those pictures of streams were just what I needed to help me through – heck where I love we are still in lockdown. In any case, IG is such a curated slice of one’s life and sometimes I think we forget that behind the images there is a soul. I don’t have any wise words other than my mantra from Lenard Cohen:
    Ring the bells that still can ring
    Forget your perfect offering
    There is a crack, a crack in everything
    That’s how the light gets in

    Rest reset and hug those gorgeous dogs

  94. Lisa
    24th May / 3:38 pm

    Sending love and good vibes from Chesapeake, Va!!

  95. Callie
    24th May / 3:47 pm

    Heal, reset and you’ll be stronger/better than ever.
    But come back, the UK will be a poorer place without you x

  96. Susan
    24th May / 3:49 pm

    I’m glad you made it back home, safe and sound. Rest, relax and restore. Kiss the fur babies, hug your family and enjoy all of the delicious food the south has to offer. 💗🦞💗

  97. Justine
    24th May / 3:59 pm

    No need for apologies ever – we all need Home at certain points and thats the beauty of family, they let you go knowing you will always know the way back and they are alwsys there.
    Always be the fabulous you that you are, sending love hugs and good vibes x ❤

  98. Marta
    24th May / 4:00 pm

    No questions, just sending you much love ! We’re never too old to go home and be with our parents. What a blessing to be able to do so . Enjoy my dear and take care xx

  99. Caroline
    24th May / 4:07 pm

    Do what you need to do and I hope you feel rejuvenated very soon. I hope Hampshire (or even UK) hasn’t lost you forever . Much love from a fellow Hampshire villager x

  100. Pam
    24th May / 4:07 pm

    Sending you strength and love. Change is never easy but having the courage to recognize and make it is so brave. Show yourself lots of self care and feel the support of your family and those adorable puppies. I am so happy that you could make it home where you feel safe taking this time to reflect and grow. ❤️

  101. Mary
    24th May / 4:15 pm

    Sometimes home is the safest, healthiest place to be. Wishing you a time of peace, growth and healing.
    Enjoy! 🇺🇸

  102. Bettina
    24th May / 4:32 pm

    Dear Emily
    Sending you lots of love and hugs across the great pond!! You don‘t have to tell us the specifics. It‘s your life. And because there is just one, live it well! I‘m glad, you‘re with your family now- to heal and get new perpspectives. Take all the time you need- you don‘t owe us anything here on Instagram.
    Best wishes
    Bettina from Switzerland

  103. Alma
    24th May / 4:53 pm

    Isn’t it great to still be able to go home to family? I hope you take all the time needed to refuel for the next adventure. And if I oils make a bold request to possibly make a stop by in NYC to get away from southern heat this summer for some city heat ?!? We just had an adventure floating island open up.! You should at least come up to see that! 🙂

  104. Debbie
    24th May / 5:08 pm

    You think about yourself and get back on track in your beautiful home , chill relax and start doing what you do best , writing so well , you have nothing to be sorry for , take care lots of love 💕

  105. Rosemary
    24th May / 5:28 pm

    You have absolutely nothing to apologize for or feel guilty about. And you were not telling a lie. Your IG photos and posts from the British countryside were beautiful and authentic, and so enlivening for me sitting here in Canada with a hole in my heart as my grown children and grandchildren are in the UK. It would have been unnatural for you to publicly share a private sorrow while you were enduring it. I’m glad you are home, where you feel safe and cherished. You’ve said writing will be good for you but you shouldn’t feel any pressure to launch your rocket if your emotional self needs time just to ‘do nothing’ buy heal for awhile. I know others have said it in these comments but I’ll re-emphasize. Your followers will wait for you as you are such a genuine, generous, creative contributor in our lives and we actually care about your well-being. You have a light in your camera lens and in your heart. Take all the time you need right now for the latter. And thank you for your honesty sharing this painful rupture. Wishing you eventual peace & closure.

  106. Bonnie
    24th May / 6:06 pm

    We are cheering you on! I am also in a tail spin this year with a surprise move to Bluffton. Trying to find myself here. If you ever need a person to ride along, send me a message!

  107. Elaine
    24th May / 6:11 pm

    Sending you a warm hug from Ireland. I want to commend you on your honesty. You’re doing the right thing for you and that’s so important. Enjoy time at home and soak up all the love. 💗

  108. Karin
    24th May / 6:23 pm

    So glad you are taking care of you. Can’t wait to spend the summer with your storytelling through pictures and words.

  109. 24th May / 7:41 pm

    Welcome back to this side of the Pond, sweetie. Hell, if my mom were still alive, I’d be back with her every chance I got, ESPECIALLY if I were going through a rough patch. Half the people I follow on social or blogs are discussing thier own mental health struggles right now, especially in the UK where you’ve been so very locked-down, AND you had your life turned upside down with no notice. You can’t pour from an empty pitcher, as they say, so let that salt air and marsh breeze work its magic, along with dog breath and the hugs of those you’ve loved the longest. We’ll all be here waiting for you whenever you’re ready to share whatever the next chapter will be, as it reveals itself.

  110. 24th May / 9:16 pm

    Absolutely no need for apologies, life has been tough! Enjoy your family time x

  111. Jenn Millett
    24th May / 10:29 pm

    Emily you are authentic and honest and an inspiration. We all need to pause and reset at various times in our lives and being enveloped in the love of your family and beautiful pups is the absolute best way to do that. You’ve given so much joy and positivity to others so don’t feel remotely guilty for taking time to look after yourself. You’re the reason I look occasionally vaguely fashionable these days so that’s a credit to you girl! Above all, remember Happiness is a warm puppy! 🐶💜🥰

  112. 24th May / 10:51 pm

    Welcome back to the United States. You never need to apologize for doing what is best for you. Wishing you a time of healing and wellbeing ❤️

  113. Lolly
    24th May / 11:11 pm

    ❤️❤️

  114. Stephanie
    25th May / 12:06 am

    I am just a state away in NC! Come on up! Where do you want to go? Let’s go! Hugs to you ❤️ Give the boys a hug too 🐾🐾

  115. Treacy
    25th May / 12:13 am

    Helpful healing always abounds in the Low Country. The smell of the salt water bogs and the mysteries that the Spanish moss holds always brings one home. Just because your a public person doesn’t mean your business/personal life is public. So soak in the sun, eat some oysters and listen the the sounds of the sea. They always tell you your truth.

    • Treacy
      25th May / 12:15 am

      You’re not your! Haha

  116. Tracy Alley
    25th May / 12:36 am

    Southern salty air and sand are perfect for soul searching especially when family and goldens are there! Praying for you!

  117. Catherine
    25th May / 5:42 am

    Dear Emily,

    I’m so sorry you hear you have been struggling, but like everyone has said this past year has thrown up a lot for us all. Thank you for your honesty I imagine that was once of the most difficult posts you’ve ever had to write. Be kind to yourself and take your time, it’s the step in front of you not the whole stairs. We’ll be here to welcome you when you are ready.
    Catherine x

  118. 25th May / 9:29 am

    Oh lovely Emily, sorry to hear you’ve been going through a tough time. I think going home sounds the best idea ever. I hope you have a wonderful, happy, healing summer, and I look forward to hearing about all your adventures in that beautiful part of the world. Give those doggies some extra cuddles from me! Sending much love, xxx

  119. Amy Franco
    25th May / 5:29 pm

    No need to apologize, this past year has been a shit show. Take time to heal, to find peace and to just breathe. We will be here for you 💗

  120. Katie
    25th August / 12:19 am

    Lovely Emily – just reading this post months later. You’re so wonderful and owe no apology. You’re human and you should take the time to heal. Life (and love) is so hard. Sometimes sharing helps and sometimes we just need to be alone and have a good cry while watching Beaches. Enjoy the home time. Be with family. Heal. All the best x

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